My subconscious questionaire

Our whole life is spent in adherence. Adherence to the very fact of existence,adherence to the social laws, laws of nature, laws of lawlessness and what not.  Hanging on to threads that do not lead to anything, holding on to promises that do not mean anything, thriving for a future that runs over the present, crying in pain for happiness that is as bitter, satisfying our ends only to be more dissatisfied, walking a lonely dark tunnel, with an idea of a light on the other side. Which is this light that we always seek, that makes the journey much more tormenting than it already is. Why do we like to race with each other, prove oneself. why do we wanna kill for honor, die for brevity and live for nothing. What is it that drives us, what is it that makes this game a never ending tale. There must be something we must be heading to , is it mere existence we always seek, or eternal salvation we always refute.  is it the competitive era that drives us or is the era competitive because we drive it. Who decides if pass or fail, who designs these criterion, who decides when we sleep, where we travel, what we watch, what we read, what we breathe. Are we the slaves of ourselves , just to be master of our own destiny or is it we, as a collective union of common desires and aspirations thrive to seek the unicorn we all created for ourselves. Is the unicorn worth the relentless war raging within, do we ever reach the endless autumn colored, spring smelling, utopia. Do we fool ourselves or are we being fooled by ourselves with this endless creation of a labyrinth that no one conquers but what conquers all. Do we all win by designing a game that we all lose.

Do we win or lose it all?